Bittersweet Happenings.

Just a few things. To help remind future self or inquiring minds.

Number one. Black Friday is stupid.

Number two. Never work retail unless you're home for a year from college trying to make some money and then NEVER DO IT AGAIN. Stay in school kids.

Number three. Don't stay out late with your boyfriend and his family the night before working Black Friday the next morning.

Number four. Try to remember in times of stress that, all in all, the things you do are most likely going to lead you towards a fairly happy and fulfilling life. Try not to get wrapped up in the little things.

And finally, Number five. Kittens are nature's way of making you stop freaking out so you can pause and say "D'awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww"

Moral of this story is...Kittens make everything better. 

In a Funk.

Emotions and hormones are odd things. Truly. One can be in a fabulous mood, an hour later be indifferent and zoning out, and ten minutes after be sad and antsy and depressed. Odd, no?

I find that if I keep myself fairly busy, like writing or watching something, or going to work a lot, I don't have enough time to worry. (My anxiety likes to win over my rationality most of the time.)
I just wonder how a lot of the time how I should deal with these escalating and dropping of emotions.
I miss you.
I'm busy.
I'm tired.
I'm motivated.
I miss you.
I'm lonely.
I'm planning.
I'm busy again.
I'm super busy.
I'm tired.
I'm super tired.

I miss you.


I wonder how much longer I can do this cycle. Can I do it for the next three weeks? Let alone seven months?


One day I shall look back on this period of my life and chuckle, thinking "Wow. Glad I got out of that funk."